Now I know I don’t have much experience when it comes to marriage, but I’m sharing what I’ve learned so far during this journey.
My husband, larry and I have been married for 1 year and 3 months. When I married him he was already in ministry and serving our church. Like I said in my post before I have always grown up in ministry, but I saw it from a different perspective. I will be making a post about life in ministry as a PK (pastors kid) soon. To some working at a church full time doesn’t seem like it should be a “full time” job, but it really is. Bringing work to home may not be an every night thing, but some nights it is. Sometimes schedules change and Larry may have to meet with someone late or at dinner time and that’s just life. Don’t get me wrong. We believe strongly in family time. Larry is wonderful at making sure that is top priority, but we do believe that souls are important. That the lost need to find Jesus and if that means changing our family time around so that someone can feel the Fathers love and to be prayed for or just needs someone to listen to them, then yes by all means we can sacrifice an hour of our family time for that person.
There’s something so special about getting to really do life with my husband. Life for us is loving the Lord most and pursuing Him and showing others His grace and love. I have always grown up wanting to be with a man like my dad and to me that was a man who not just loved the Lord with his whole heart, but also meant a man in ministry. All I knew was ministry and all I wanted was just that. I don’t mind long nights at church or schedule changes if it means that someone gets to know the Lord!
I told you I would be transparent and honest so here you go…
I can honestly say that sometimes it’s hard and it feels like you can’t mess up because everyone’s watching. I am 100% an introvert and sometimes that gets the best of me and I have a hard time being around people and I just want to be by myself. In ministry that isn’t always something I can do. Faking a smile has become easier than it should be. Don’t get me wrong. I am not depressed or hate being around people, but sometimes trying to live a not so messy life and trying to appear “happy” isn’t always easy. This is life. I live it too. I am NOT perfect. My family is not perfect. My life is not perfect, BUT we love the Lord. We pursue Him. He is what makes days easier.
I’m being honest to be relatable and not for you to feel bad for me. I’m being honest so that you know I have bad days, but I have MORE great days! I love the Lord with everything in me and He makes the bad days a lot less and makes the great days greater!
If I had to go back and change anything I wouldn’t! I would choose to always be in ministry.